I feel all of this so hard and it was so beautifully written. The grief of realizing the people yiu spend your time with arent headed where you are and the vulnerability in coming back and saying "im here! We still cool?"
Ive never let myself go back and now im wondering which spaces id want to return to.
I haven't found it easy but rather a personal exploration of how going quiet helped me heal while also prevented my ability to be seen and grow my business because I was afraid of more rejection and pain.
Reading this made me curious about the "healing" and "grow my business" desire to happen simultaneously. Plants don't strengthen their roots and flower at the same time. But I get it's challenging to always layer capitalistic realities with the rhythms of nature.
I feel like you'll bloom beautifully when it's time but that also feels very unhelpful and a bit like "positivity gas lighting" lol
For myself, I've found that I had to change my "definition" of success but some days I'm not convinced and feel like I'm just lying to myself to feel better, ya know?
I feel all of this so hard and it was so beautifully written. The grief of realizing the people yiu spend your time with arent headed where you are and the vulnerability in coming back and saying "im here! We still cool?"
Ive never let myself go back and now im wondering which spaces id want to return to.
I haven't found it easy but rather a personal exploration of how going quiet helped me heal while also prevented my ability to be seen and grow my business because I was afraid of more rejection and pain.
Reading this made me curious about the "healing" and "grow my business" desire to happen simultaneously. Plants don't strengthen their roots and flower at the same time. But I get it's challenging to always layer capitalistic realities with the rhythms of nature.
I feel like you'll bloom beautifully when it's time but that also feels very unhelpful and a bit like "positivity gas lighting" lol
For myself, I've found that I had to change my "definition" of success but some days I'm not convinced and feel like I'm just lying to myself to feel better, ya know?
so much we can speak about here in your incredible reflection. oh how I adore you